I’m a jealous person, even in friendships. I find myself struggling with envy at times, especially when people have company that I would like to have. But I’ve been learning time and time again that I have a unique role in the lives of the people I care about. A role that no one can take away from me. No one can replace me in their lives, just as no one can replace them in mine. We all have people we wish would see us the way they see someone else. And yet, we always forget how they see us, and how, if only we realized it, we would not want to trade our relationship with them for that of another.
I guess I’ve discovered that I’m happy with who I am in people’s lives. And if I’m not? Hell, I’ll make it so that I matter to them. What better way to be a friend than to be so great that you prove to people that they will miss you when you go?
With the days flying by, I’ve been left to my own thoughts. What have I been thinking about? Well, many things, really. But mostly, people.
Ah yes, the people.
I think about those I’ll leave behind. The people I care about. The ones I find myself thinking about and missing, even though we see each other regularly. You know who you are. And if you don’t, then I apologize because that means I have not proven to you that you matter to me.
Long time no comment.
Make sure you do let them know they matter before you leave. I’m already gone and I sincerely regret not making it clear to some people.
I miss them like crazy.
I miss Brunei like crazy.
Being independent bites.
Lotsa love, Jana
It’s slowly kicking in yea? All the U.K stuffs and all…
Anyway, just letting YOU know that i’m proud of who you are and what you’ve done. I’m even prouder (if there is such word, if there is none, then see how proud you’ve made me to even say such word!) to let the whole world know that you’re my witness. My “daddy”…
P/S: Does this make me a Ape junior?
[jana] Yeah I know how you feel. Or at least, I will.
[Ron] Haha thanx, my boy. I guess it does.
hey ches,
leaving isn’t easy, but you already know that don’t you? I went through it twice, leaving Brunei 3 years ago and leaving KL this year. It’s heart-wrenching leaving behind people you care about and everything that you’re used to. Your comfort.
But you’ll only be gone for a year, and we’ll be here eagerly awaiting your return! So don’t fret! We’ll miss you. I know I will, eventhough we really haven’t gotten the chance to know each other better.
I’m proud of you too.
But mostly, I’m relieved, in a foolish, jealous, retarded sense….
That there’s be more of us populating the world.
More of us with such strong ties and links to this beautiful, tiny little place they call Brunei….
It’s like we’re all part of some secret little club that only 300,000 people can share at once…that completely evades everyone else.
Here’s a verse I wrote that I want to share even if it is slightly depressing
My country, my haven, my beautiful home,
Where I end matters not, there I start,
If home indeed is where the heart is,
In short, friend, I miss my heart.
My heart’s still there. As long as it is, you have nothing to worry about.
I’m gonna miss you…Thanks for being yourself! Take care, ko…
Hehe gonna miss all of you too.